Dr. Captain!!

Hey, all three of you who actually read this crap. I'm really bored, and I thought I would try to ease it with a little blogging. I really don't know what to say right now except that I'm bored, I'm sittin at home, and completely overcome with boredom. Casey is here, but he's asleep, because he has school tomorrow, and is actually trying to get good grades this year. I'm really not sure if he's trying harder because he cares, or because I said I would buy him an mp3 player when he got a report card with nothing lower than a B. Hey, whatever works! But don't worry, I told him he had to work to get it, and work to keep it, and the first bad report card he gets I'm giving the mp3 player to Jordan(Jordan's idea by the way). Anyway, I'm gonna switch gears a little bit, and say that I'm really, really excited about football season. I know it's kinda early, but I'm gonna pick the Eagles in the NFC and, either the Steelers, or the Colts in the AFC(I'm hoping Colts). In all reality, my team is the 49ers, but they're in somewhat of a rebuilding stage, and they're coach is an idiot. So, I've found myself rooting for numbers two and three. Number two being the colts, who, growing up in Indiana you hear alot about, but that wasn't what did it for me(Josiah), for me it was always about the character of their stars. From Jim Harbaugh, to Peyton Manning (second best quarterback of all time, next to Joe Montana), and Marshall Faulk, to Marvin Harrison. They're stars have always had a strength of character that was only matched by guys like, Jerry Rice, Joe Montana, Dan Marino, Walter Payton, Emmit Smith, Reggie White, Marcus Allen, Don Shula, Barry Sanders, Vince Lombardi, etc. Number 3 being the Chicago Bears, who I grew up watching, and listening to my Dad yell at every Sunday. The love I have for this team, is more in honor of my father(God rest his soul), than my personal adoration for the team. Bottom line is, I LOVE FOOTBALL! And I agree, Josiah, that liking a team simply because you live in the state they represent, is a fairly weak reason for such a strong loyalty. I say, like them because they play with respectable characteristics, such as , heart, passion, courage, intensity, and an absolute love for the game, instead of, the amount air time and endorsements they hold. Love and defend your team, because they are exactly that, "YOUR TEAM", and all will be well, with you and the fathers of the game who have gone on before us, and you can wear proudly and without shame(no matter if the record is under or above 500) the title of "DIE HARD FAN". That's all I got for now, so until next time, VIVE LE FOOTBALL!!!

Shrinking dreams, Growing Fears

It seems that the older I am, the smaller my dreams are. I used to wish for fame, now I just hope people we'll remember me when I'm gone. Hopes of fortune are now a desire to get out of debt. Longings for that fairy tail love, overcome by the fear of dying alone. What was once all about basketball and summer vacation, is suddenly conquered by bills and an utter disdain for my job. Maybe this happens to everyone when the reach their twenties, I don't know, but it feels like it's only happening to me. That could just be due to the fact that we are all, by default, completely self involved. Anyway, I'm just trying to figure out when I went from not being able to sleep thinking about how cool it was going to be when I "grew up", to laying awake stressing over past due bills and perpetual singleness(if that's a word). Is this just a quick stop on my journey, or my new home? I pray it is a potty break, and not my final destination. Well, that is all I will bore you with tonight. Until next time.

Spoken Rocks!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Just wanted to let everyone know that the new Spoken album"Last Chance to Breathe" comes out on the 30th. You should all go out and buy it, and support one of the hardest working bands in music. If you don't buy it, then you're a loser who doesn't know what good music is, and you should be exiled to Alabama and be forced to listen to country pop for the rest of your life. SO BUY IT OR DIE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Are we feeling comfortable yet?

Do you think it's possible to feel comfortable and uncomfortable at the same time? Caught somewhere between what you've always known, and what you wish you could forget. Always fighting against ruts and rhetoric. Unintentionally involved in some kind of second rate "coming of age" novel. Finally bored enough to kick and scream your way out of the womb. Blinking your eyes at the size of this new world you've just been thrust into. Trembling with fear and excitement, overcome with joy and sadness. Mourning the loss of your old home, and reveling in the beauty of your new one. Starting everything over, and learning all things new. I always thought that the birthting process was a one time only deal, but lately I've found that we will be put through this process as many times as it takes to truly become alive.